u'll get lonely.. Like damn lonely.. Pigeons and aeroplanes are flying around me, everywhere!!! I'm sick of getting them. Is it retribution??!!
But, putting tt aside, today is another interesting day.
It's class 2_6 day!!!!
Surprisingly though, they're much better behaved today. I guess it is because of the fact that they're wearing their uniform. They're also more interested in the lesson. I guess, at this IT era, only computer and softwares will capture these youngsters' attention. Anything else seems kinda boring to them. Wouldnt you miss the old days when we sing and dance and play instruments during music classes? I do. But I guess, they dun......
2day is also meet Roy day.. Lol.. He's like the PR personal of the class. He cant sit still and keeps walking around to talk with his friends or see what are they doing. He's totally uncontrollable. I think he tried to make jokes?? But honestly, I dun really find his words really that amusing la.. But even then, I tried to make a polite smile... and guess what he said?
Roy: 你笑得很不自然勒。
Me: (...) 因为不是很好笑吗。。怎么笑得自然？
Actually, I was kinda stunned too. He was the first one to tell me, directly, straight to my face that I was really smiling from my heart. I was totally shameful. I've must haf done tt like zillions of times.. But yet, no one tells me that. I bet they can see through me, but didnt say. Yet, a kid can tell me straight to my face that it was a polite smile and totally unnatural. I'm totally ashamed of myself. Initially, I didnt really want to bother about it. My first reaction was:"ok.. I'm going to practice on my polite smile so that no one will ever find out that i'm not actually smiling from my heart. it's jus for a show.." But now, after 45min of reflection.. I know I have to change this incorrect mindset. Sure, I can practice my "Perfect Smile".. however, nothing is perfect in this world. Someday, another person will say the same thing to me again.
你笑得很不自然勒This sentence will forever haunt me and follow me, no matter how well I hide from it. I guess, in order to change it, I would haf to reflect upon myself on how I treat everyone. Whether I am truely listening to them, or am I just talking to them because I HAVE to!!??? And then, I realised that, it all links back to my selfish self. I'm so arrogant and conceited that I do not treat ppl beside me with a true heart, no matter how close they are to me. May it be a student or someone from PC.. Have i treated them with my true heart as i treat my family and closest friends? I dun think so... It's time to change.. To stand up and take action.
If u r still reading this.. Thanks 4 the attention.. Now, let's divert attention to something more interesting...
It's about laptops.. Finally, someone other than me is complaining abt haley's non-existance mouse. HA!!! The person who was borrowing her laptop got so fed-up with having to work with a mouse that he got so distracted and was really slow sia... lol.. slower den me. So u can imagine how Slow that was. Haley ar... Maybe I'll get u a mouse as ur b-day prezzie ba.. LOL...
Couldnt sleep last night. Must have been the afternoon nap that I took. In the end, was too much awake to catch any sleep. Sigh, terrible lesson learnt.
Cool!! It's been some time since I have a long, long post. With more words than spacing.
Ciao.. Shall go to PC for Children Activity Planning Meeting.
