Dear Time Table,

After spending 4 weeks of school with u, I must tell u something. I don't hate you anymore. Ya, I noe. I used to loathe you, hate you, complain about you. But now, I dun. Even though u still seem ridiculous to me, but, everything turned out well in the end! Although my time slots sux, but! The tutors dun. While everybody is complaining abt their tutor of tt particular subject, my tutor is like so much better. There's more stuff going on.

It could have been worse you noe. I could haf stayed in school until like 7 or even 9 plus!! My longest break is 3 hours. There's a case where the guy actuall had to wait for like 7hours before his next class. his first class starts at 830-1030. his next class starts at 530!!! terrible isnt it? sigh, compared to him, i'm more fortunate :D

So, i wont complain anymore. Although i cant say that I like u or anything. But at least I dun haf any negative feelings towards u le =)

yours sincerly,
your beautiful goddess.....
Yi Fan =D

原来，心情不好是这样的啊？
那，我的心情，真得不好。
不是糟透的那种。只是，不好。

原来，我已经变了。

原来，我已经，离我想要的生活，不远了。

原来，我还是没清醒。难道，还向沉浸在虚糜世界？不是已经被撕开了吗？

原来，还没醒啊？

原来，女人，你没你想象中的勇敢。你只是一个懦弱的人。

原来，你还没照镜子。。。 难怪。逃避，是没用的。

原来，你还在用很孬种的理由来催眠自己。女人，你不需要在更多的时间了。

原来，这只是个开始。

原来，离梦，还远啊。。。

女人，坚强点，加油点！

It's from this book called "The Power of Gestures". Since, I'm not really doing any assignments, to heck with APA citations.

Page 11-12,

Author Helen Colton, in her book The Gift of Touch (Seaview/Putnam, 1983), graphically descibes how different cultures react with varying gestures. In this case, she poses an embarrasing situation and tells how various people around the world would react. The situation: You suddenly come upon a strange person in her bath. The varied reactions of that woman would be as follows:

- A Mohammedan woman would cover her face. (not a bad idea, Dun let anyone recognise u!!)
- A Laotian woman cover her breasts. (normal reaction la..)
- A Chinese woman before the Revolution would hide her feet. (der.. what for??)
- In Sumatra, the woman would conceal her knees. (I dun really get this one... -_-''')
- In Samoa, she would cover her navel. (Hmm... Interesting)
- In the Western world, she would cover her breasts with one arm and her genital area with the other hand. (Haha.... Funny la..)

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Which one would u choose? As a girl living in the country called Common sense. Haha.. Guess what I'll do?

Ans: Jus turn around and face the other way la. Haha.. If u're really ashamed of ur butt, den cover ur butt. haha.. Turn around den no one would really see anything lor.... Hahahaha.... It's all in the country of common sense la........

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I prefer playing music to dancing. I feel stupid when I'm dancing. Really weird. Sigh.. I hope I wont make a fool out of myself on 30 September 2007.

Haha.. Lol.. It wonders me how my turning up at the practice can amaze so many ppl.. I'm so honoured... (takes a deep bow) Will do my best.... To turn up at practices.. :D

totally love this song........

NEW CRAZE!!!!

For me that is..

Until I get bored with it :D

Total

Terrible

Day...............

But there's nothing I can do about it..

I feel like singing...

[It's sad. So sad. It's a sad sad situation. And it's getting more and more absurd. It's sad, so sad. Why cant we talk it over. All these seems to be.. Sorry, seems to be the hardest word......]

I oso feel like singing

[I've got a right to be wrong. Got to sing my own song. I might be singing out of key. But it sure feels good to me.......]

Been feeling twisted lately. Ever since National Day. Much have been happening to me. I guess I'm too slow and thick to realise things. I'm so affected now. Damn. Right now, I so hate tt stupid SMS. But then, I only have myself to blame. My practice has been too lazy. So, right now, I'm being affected by my surrounding environment. Sighs..

I so hate Highs and Lows.. Where did my stable life condition go to?? Hey.. Eh.. Come back to me!! Come back!!!

Now I noe how SY felt when she was scolding Fuck on MSN. It really felt really good. Now I noe y would ppl out this word on their tip of their mouth all the time. It really suits any mood as or worse den what i am feeling now..

honestly.. From now on.. I'm jus going to psycho myself.

Title: I dun need you.

hell, who needs you. you disgusting faker!!!
Go to hell.
u dun deserve to go to heaven or anywhere else.
U should see how cruel u are, u name-caller. Shame on u.
Were u taught in ur Oh-so-holy place to call ppl names?
i think not. I pity the person. I pity the person who would see how revolting u are.

U live in a world of ur own.
U expect me to be always ready, ready to be called by you. To serve, adore and worship u.
GET REAL!!

I live in MY own world.
I can only adore ME.
I can only serve ME.
I can only love ME.
I can only WORSHIP ME!!
..... Who the bloody hell are u? U stupid muggle.

I am not someone who u treat as a spare tire.
I am an individual, I go where I want.
U ask where I go? HA!
U show ur concern to me...
Wohooo... So wat? I'm supposed to cry with tears at ur mercy?
Puhleeze.... U arrogant git! Stop all ur pretences.

U think, with a few words, u can wash away ur guilt.
U think with a stupid SMS, u can apologise and mend things.
It's all about what U THINK!!
What about me?
I'm sick and tired of having to act sweet with u.
The truth is..

I'm a lier. Down right evil lier.
I'll continue to lie to u.
At no cost, (it's my pleasure to serve you.)
I'll serve up the most delicious lies and u'd suck it up all the same.
Why?
haha.. Cos u're a sucker, of course.

But now, I'll torture myself for a while.
I'll tear down my mask now.
I'll tell you the truth.
Read it. Savour it. Eat it.
Then, forget about it.
Continue to be a sucker. Let my lies wash u over and over again, u stupid git.

For u, naive is a bless...... To me!! hahaa..
Dun feel inferior. Lots of ppl love naive girls.
Like me... Hang on there!
Dun die so fast.
Dun get depressed too quickly.

I still wan to try torturing you...........
Who says i dun need you?

I'm a lier, remember?

Wake up!
U and ur stupid gang.
Wake up!
And prepare to meet doom.





Ooher.. ya.. before i forget.. I am "touched" that you care! I'm practically crying. Ooher.. I see the light that u shine upon with me ur ridiculous, oops, er, i mean ur glorious words. OOooh.. You show me ur concern. I'm sobbing too hard.. ooh... u r like a dog, er.. i mean god who show me the way... (erm.. did i mention tt I belive in Buddha?) ohhhh.... Thank you so much, I'm truely entertained, ooher, I mean, enlightened....


Sleep well, my little angle, oops, angel...

Oyasumi ne!!

As stated.. The post has been deleted since 7pm. Too bad if u didnt read it. It was a nice juicy piece of post here.




But then..



Hey! Look on the brighter side, I am "touched" that you care!

Even til now, yeah.. I am still "touched".

wa... cannot tolerate it anymore. I must scold that stupid guy. what on earth is he thinking about?? Please la.. it's so obvious tt he likes him(her)!!!!! What de.. Still say he's not a gay. So, force themselves to become god-brothers. Please la.. It's so evident that he loves him(her) lor.. Only wanted to become brothers so tat they can stay together forever, and escape from reality. Y cant he just admit it??? So stupid. His eyes really something wrong lez.. So obvious tt Chan is a girl lor. Where got look like a boy? from all angles, Chan really look like a girl wat.. Eyes kana stuck with stamps. Chan oso stupid la.. Just say she's a girl la. Get it done and over with. Then, I dun haf to go through the scenes in which the stupid guy wants to hug her(him), holds her(his) hands, say can do tt cos they're brothers. Please la.. Sisters hold hands still ok, brothers hor.. really weird. Too gay le.. Then, sleeping beside her(him) wants to hug together and sleep, but stopped cos he knows it's too gayish le.. wa...... *STABS HEART* So agony sia... all the weird weird atmosphere. I wan to die la.. At most, JUST ADMIT THAT U LIKE THIS GUY(GAL) AND GET IT OVER AND DONE WITH!! BE A GAY IF U HAF TO(WHICH U DUN REALLY NEED TO)... WAT KIND OF GOD-BROTHER RELATIONSHIP IS THIS???


okie.. feel much better.. if u dun understand what i'm writing about.. haha.... ask me lor... but hor.. hehe.. Never mind.

first day of school. In short, what i wan to say is...

if the next lesson on popular music and culture is as complicated as today's lesson (or even more complicated and confusing) den, I STRONGLY OBJECT TO ARGUMENT NO. 1. POPULAR IS INFERIOR.

HECK!! I think Popular music is even MORE complicated to classical music. Hey, at least there's a clear distinction between the different genres or eras of Classical music. But hor.. Popular music is so diversed! And if two genres mix, wa... die la.. Die of overdosage of blurness. Hence... I'll like to change the statement to..

CLASSICAL MUSIC (genre and its complexity and its analysis wise) IS INFERIOR TO THAT OF POPULAR MUSIC AND IT'S CULTURE!!!!!!!!!!



my parents came back from the wedding banquet. When i was a kid, i used to think that 11pm is like darn late. Must quickly go to sleep. If not, next day cannot wake up for school. Now, especialy at this instance, it's stil early. my sleeping time is seldom at 11. in fact, i'm sleeping at 3 or 4 am. Last time, i used to think that it's wrong to sleep so late.. But now.. Sigh, how time flies. I'm almost an adult already. I've long past the times when i go to bed at 9.30pm.