5 min b4 class. Rushed down to get keys.
Keys not there.
Run like mad to find my CT.
Run back to music room to open room for students.

Aching legs, from all the mad running for 5 consecutive minutes.

Adaptor not there.
Both keyboards not working.
Haf to run down to GO to get keys, AGAIN.
Returned, panting
But most importantly, BAD mood.

Class not cooperating.
My good class.
Disappointed.
NO one wanted to perform.
And they've wasted my precious 5min of time.

*Knock*Knock*Knock*

Silently. Glooming tension stops all girls in their actions.

"What time is it now?"

Emotionless face appearing now.
They're pretty shocked.
They've never seen me not smiling at all.
Horrible face scares them I guess.

Alas, I'm in control again.
And tt's all that matters.
The rest went well.
But my heart has already been shot at and sunk.

Postscript of class.
I've said and done lots of things that I should not have done.
I utterly regret about my words and actions.
I blame no one, but myself.

Is there still hope?
Sure, of course.
I've still got 4 observations left.
All's not lost.

I must have been complacent.
Going downhills now.
Must stop and rebel against Newton and his blasted dropping apple.
I must improve and go up the hill again.

up, Up and UP!
I will survive, no matter what.

Lots of shatterings today.
Plans, moods, heart, face,..... and Day-dreams.

Oh well, at least i've woken up and smell the coffee.
Shall not daydream anymore.
Will be realistic to concentrate on passing my last remaining days of good life.

Feeling suicidal now.
The window is just infront of me.
The scenary is so beautiful.
The skies are blue, the clouds are so fluffy.
I feel like lying on it....
It's so near, yet so far.

Suicidal emotions are so over-whelming......

I'm going to fly now..

Goodbye, oh, beautiful world.