As a teacher, I'm considered as half a public figure. Hence, I have to be careful about what I blog..... Haiz.. What's the fun? Oooh. Of course there's fun. It's a challenge for me to blog about things that people who knows about it understand it. N people who dunno abt it.. well... they'll know about it. UNKNOWINGLY!!!!

Hmmmm......... Tough challenge!

Just watched the News... So touched.

A girl who thought she lost both her parents and is an orphan was able to communicate with her Father through a TV show. Yeah! It's such a relief that she's not an orphan anymore. N!!! Both her mother and father are living well. No major injuries or what so ever. The whole family is living well. But what touches me most was that, before the call was cut off, the girl urgently took the mic from the MC and urged her father that he has to be a volunteer and help out at the disaster areas. There's still a lot of people who are trapped and suffering. He must quickly go and help them. Argh.... I cried la... And there were many people who were there at the show, listening to their conversation, cried too. She's really a sensible girl. N I guess that's why whoever's up there decided that she should have her parents back with her... Sobz.......

Mourning period.

------------------------ Heart breaks ----------------------------------------------

Gosho Passage:

"Now, if you wish to attain Buddhahood, you have only to lower the banners of your arrogance, cast aside the staff of your anger, and devote yourself exclusively to the one vehicle of the Lotus Sutra. Worldly fame and profit are mere baubles of your present existence, and arrogance and prejudice are ties that will fetter you into a future one. Ah, you should be ashamed of them! And you should fear them too!"

Feel that it's kinda directing at me. It's scary. The world is changing. But I'm not. I'm struggling not to change. My heart's not taking it too well. Too stressful. As if I don't have anything else to stress over. I don't like stress. Not good for my health.

Finished updating Group B activity.

Came back from a hearty meal of steamboat. Left should aching. Still aching now, but I think I'm getting used to the pain now. It's not hurting a lot now.

Listening to MayDay now. 拥抱。

What a day. Not bad at all. Just that, I'm feeling kinda weird.

It's like....

You finally have something that you've always wanted. But then, you dun feel half as ecstatic as you thought you should have.

You finished something. But you're not sure if it was the correct thing that you should have done.

The roti prata looks the same. It's still cooked by the same person. It's still served in the same shop, located at the right junction, at the right street. But... It just doesn't taste the same anymore.

You know all the signs. You know that you'll get a hangover the next day, but you'll still drink til you get dead drunk and puke like nobody's business.

You know that you'll probably get punished for not doing the chores tt you're assigned to. But procrastination got the better of you. N you got punished. But when the same thing happens, it turns to a vicious cycle.

Your favorite idol/actress/singer has jus gotten himself/herself into some bad nasty scandal. You dunno if u should continue to support and treat the rumor as trash. Or believe it and be heart-broken over it.


Everything's pretty ambiguous to me now. I want to change. At least, that's what I think. But then, I dunno how to go about it.

I think.... I'm getting the.. "People have, so I must have that thing too" syndrome. Not a good sign.. Jealousy and envy get one nowhere. Remember that.

Breathe in....

Breathe out......

Listen to music........

Get really high to it...............

And forget all troubles..........................

BRILLIANT. I'm doing it =)

I didnt really want to write this post.
I did hope that I could drag this as long as I could.
But I realised, I couldn't. It didnt seem right not to have a proper ending to a wonderful phase of memory.

I really enjoyed teaching the girls there. Glad that I still had a last final lesson at Nanyang. At least, I still can have some contact with the students. Sigh, But I wished it ended on the odd week. Den at least, the lessons are spread out throughout the week and I didnt haf to rush through lessons and haf a proper goodbye to all the classes.

Well, at least, I did had some sort of a proper goodbye with 205. U girls rock!!! They said a very sincere goodbye to me. N even a cheer to me before they left the music room. OMG, I was so teary den.. Haha, but I held back my tears. Sigh.......
N since it was the last lesson, they were all so co-operative and the lesson was one of the best that I can remember. Yipee....

All I can say is that, should anyone of you Nanyang girls read this,

"I'LL DEFINITELY MISS ALL OF U......!!!!!"

I'm missing Nanyang already.

There goes the ending of my good life.
And "Hello" to the start of cruel reality.

Why did this day have to come so quickly?

i think

i've just been poisoned. Help