I snapped in class today.
Totally lost my mind.

The tutor was briefing about the final lesson_plan assignment.
A full 20min was wasted on a silly topic.
It was like a repetition, loop of whatever has been done talking.
Normally, I'd have just let it go. Keep my mouth shut and just roll eyes.
But somehow, the lack of sleep affected my temper and my patience.

I snapped.

I raised my hands a few times.
'Eager' to get the attention to speak.
I got it.

And I retorted back.

When I finished. I was still shaking with anger.
It was such a simple concept. Yet, they had to think in-depth at the wrong moment.
It was not that they were not intelligent.
They are.... Too intelligent in fact. They dig into the world of fairness and unfairness too much that they lose the big idea.

They're academically bright.
But not in the department of maturity.
They get attached to assignments very deeply.
I wonder why.

Anyways, sometimes i think that we are from two different worlds.
Wait....

We are from two different worlds.

PS: On the other hand, I wont mind absorbing some of their intellectual thinkings. Some of their analysis and way of thinking is different from mine. They get attached and serious about every assignment. I like tt part... Cos I'm not.... Except for the immature part of course. Sigh..........
PPS: I'm not tt mature myself. Cant say tt of other ppl huh?!
PPPS: On the other hand... Heck!
PPPPS: I'd rather see the world through half-a-good-lens and half-a-broken-lens.

The reason that got me excited over nothing is all because of this poster.
I took a picture of it so that you can see it.



After I read the first line: Larc En Ciel
I tot the band was coming to Singapore! I was like "OMG! YEAH!" Jumping up and down like mad. Then after reading the second line.... Chey... It wasnt the legendary J-rock band.. It's just an NUS concert.... I was so disappointed la..

But then, haiz... I've been day-dreaming for too long le. How can such a legendary band come down to tiny Singapore lez? Not possible wat. Haiz......

Anyways, my erhu teacher was in a good mood! So not like the past months when she was all grumpy.. Amazing. She can even joke around sia..... OOher.... Yayaya..... Whatever right?
But my point is: It's the first time since like 2months tt i dun come out of the class feeling depressed or the urge to cry. Cool right? Hehehehe.....

I thought I'm really relaxed. But that's just on the surface.. My tight, stiff and inflexible grip of the bow reveals all my short-comings......
I need to really get down and think about this.

All because of stupid composition lah...
I so hate you!!!!!

Super stress
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SUPER STRESS!!!!

It's been such a hassle trying to sign in and blog. Why? Cos the stupid blogger webbie is being stupid of course. Kept giving me blank screens.

It's such a hassle trying to complete work done a week earlier. I dun mind a day earlier.. But a week?? Argh.. No way man......

It's such a hassle to work sibelius on laptop or anywhere else. Wish there was an easier way. Like use mind to control everything. Just play or sing everything inside my head and everything else pops out.

It's such a hassle to wait for something that you absolutely have no idea of coming out. AKA: Mirotic album

It's such a hassle to haf long hair..... I should probably do something about it....

One day, I will return and look at my silly hassles and grin and brush it off... But right now, let me suffer a bit first la....

PS: I totally suck at music composition..........

Just go over to that person and slap him/her really hard on the shoulder. Especially in the middle of important rushing of essays and assignments. And after a tiring practice session.

Seriously. This tiny world of mine would be so much more peaceful if I'm just left alone and if people just turn a blind eye to somewhere else.

Now, my poor ears are suffering while I'm trying to drown out the screaming with loud banging songs blasting from my handphone through the headphones to my ears. Ya ya ya, long sentences... Nvm lah........ I'm not marking this piece of shit nor am I a grammarian analysing anything.

My first memorable moment at NIE.
I actually got to stay in school til 7.30pm sharp!
What a big difference a hour can make. 6.30pm and 7.30pm.
It's dark, cold and HUNGRY!

But tutorial was fun. Well, the people infront of us were anyway....

I hope I wont get any classes that end that late. Argh...