Suddenly, I've lost all my confidence in teaching. My lessons are no longer engaging. I .. I've lost my words... I ... I don't know what to say at all. My mind goes blank in the class. I am not being myself. I dun crack jokes.

And the worst thing is

I start to carry out my teaching in the lesson plans. I am oblivious to everything else.

There's something seriously wrong with me.

My questioning techniques suck. Big Time. People start to worry about me.

Hello, you dun haf to worry about me. I'm doing a lot of that already.

Then I realised ... I really need help.

My pride totally rejects this notion. I so do not need help, it screams. But for one of these rare times, I ignore its unreasonable thinking.

I am going to accept help humbly. Gain back my confidence as a teacher. And learn to teach all over again. Starting with observations.

My Judgment Day is on Wednesday. 22 July 2009.

Thou shalt not hear from thy til then .. .. ..

I'll post my results out. Whatever it may be .. ..

PS: But I'll still update on my twitter la .. Sorry, I'm addicted to tt at the moment. So, cant really live without updating it once in a while. (Like 2-3 hours la)