Just when I thought that nothing can take me by surprise and catch me off guard and leave me panicking, an absence of news can do that.

Sigh....

I used to be the agitated kind who would frown, fret and worry to the nuts about little things. I genuinely thought I had somehow outgrown that phase, mature a bit to the point that I can take a deep breath, sit down and think through my options.

But noooooooooo ...

School posting just ruined it all...

Wa.... KNS!

So, it's not that I have matured or gained more experiences. It's just that my surrounding environment has stagnated to a point that it is boring! Nothing interesting pops out and catch me off guard. No incidents that teaches me a lesson that I constantly need to learn. In one phrase to sum it all..

I HAVE GOT NO BLOODY LIFE!

Yeap.... That's all, folks. Laugh at me for all it's worth. I truly deserve it. Sometimes I think of whisking myself off to some random foreign land and have an adventure of some sort. Or to follow a stranger and see what kind of trouble that can lead me. It's just some sort of weird fantasy, I look at my savings, and all these shenanigans burst and I wake up from my dreams and imaginations.

I can somehow relate to the old supervisor that I seriously dislike (and whenever I think of her, I have the strongest tendency to want to roll my eyes) who said that NT students cannot imagine blah blah blah something along that line. What's the point of imagining when one would realise that it's just imagination and that it would be a dream that they would and cannot achieve? In the end, when they wake up, it would just hurt them to realise that it's all just in their imagination and when they see the cruel harsh reality that's around them... It would crush them, leaving them with no bones and courage to continue living on....

Well, at least, I feel that way. Sigh.... And all the creative things and writing that we have to do? Bleah.....

Another word to conclude this post....

Bleah....