Today, I scolded a class. Reason: They were late.

Actually, it's not a really big deal. They had class before that and it was in the com lab, so they had to return to class to take their stuffs. N my max tolerant time limit is 10min. Cos i do noe tt music lesson compared to the other academic subjects, is of less important and because of the recent competitions, most of them would have missed classes and the teachers would probably want them to catch up too. So, no biggie deal here.

Den why did I still got pissed off and started lecturing them?

Cos they came strolling in.

I cant really understand a thing. 2 girls can be on time. 4 slightly behind. Half 5min behind. The rest, s-t-r-o-l-l-i-n-g in.

I'm positioned right next to the door.
The other half saw me.
The quarter quickly came in to settle down.
The last quarter?
They saw me. (how could they not? Me standing next to the door. Would surely see me when they open the door. N i was wearing pink.)

I looked at them.
They looked at me.
N treated my glance like nothing.

My heart sank.

And then, I began to wonder. Should I scold them? After all, the lateness does not really occur just once or twice.

Then, I decided. I AM going to scold them. Not because they were late. But because they showed no pride in attending lessons on time. I do understand that in-between changing of class, some time will be lost. But please, do not treat it as something that you can take advantage of. This is poor attitude. Especially since today's lesson is assessed. Project performance. With 12 min gone, how am I supposed to finish assessing all groups? You come s-t-r-o-l-l-i-n-g in. What attitude does it show on yourself?

-------- I forgot what I lectured them on actually, but then, you get the main idea ----------

Was I looking at them? Nope, I was looking at the floor most of the time. Totally disappointed. When I looked up, I see faces towards the floor too. The first time that the whole class was listening so attentively to me. And I was speaking in complete sentences. Without any ers, ar, and the.....

So cool la....

And then, I was in control of the class. Everything went smoothly. They listened to my instructions and FOLLOWED them. This is really something. Students might be listening to what you haf to say, but they might not understand it or even do what you want. Listening in does not mean being able to follow.


Then now as I write. I have this sudden thinking. I think I'm dead. Cos my CT was observing this class. N i've just scolded her class. Would I be doing some damages that she has to undo when I'm gone? How would it reflect on my APT form?

Heck la. I did what I should (did I?)n even til now, I dun regret it. Cos, I do sincerely want them to change their attitude.

My 2 CTs commented that I'm not firm or stern enough in my classroom management. Students might not take me seriously. Not talking about good schools like where I am now but in other normal neighbourhood schools where disciplinary issues are huge. After much reflection, I do think it's true. Especially today. It's time to mold the heart with iron solding. Get a grip, Miss Seah. Believe in yourself.

Havent talk to my CT1 about today's observation.

Just wondering.

Would I be prepared to hear whatever she is going to tell me....