It's been a while,
really...
It's been a while.

It's been a while since I walk home with a glimpse of smile on my face.

It has also been a while since I watch a movie, legally. Like in a cinema.

Nice movies never fails to put a smile on my face.
It's just that important.
Walking and smiling at the same time.
The feeling of tiny happiness spreading through your body.
The weather feels nice, the breeze feels cool on your skin.
You wouldn't mind the extra walk back home (even though you hate walking and always take the short-cut)
You'd wish you could just keep walking without stopping until you feel like it.

Then I got home.

Then I felt the guilt.
Of lying.
Without blinking my eyes for a moment.
Then, my good mood just "pop" into nothingness.
Then I wonder... "Did I really do the right thing?"
My heart says "yes!"
But my morality/conscious begs to differ.

So, right now... I'm kinda caught in the middle between what my heart wants and what my mind disagrees.

I just feel bad.

I'm sorry I lied to you, Mom.

I can't promise that I won't do it again.
But I will repent. And strengthen my faith for the Tozan trip.
请让我再任性吧。I'm not worried about Cause and Effect. I'm just worried that I might not sleep well later.

Shooooot! Whatever. The thing is done and over with. Should I get caught. I'll live with it!

Dang! I hate Kenshus. I am so not afraid to post that sentence. No one in particular group or committee will read about this anyway. I am that insignificant in everyway.

I sign off with a heavy sigh..

Haiz....

PS: Dang! I still cant decide if I have done the right thing or not.
PPS: "Yes Man" is really a funny movie. Jim Carey is really old. And his facial expression is not as extravagant as before. He looks .... normal. In the movie. I think he's kinda tired .... Hmmmph ...