I didnt think nor expect to write about this. But it's just that..... I'm so angry and irritated by my Mother that I've decided to blog it. Not much of a use to spite her la. She doesnt go online, let alone read blogs.

Think by now most of you know that I've moved house right? Right....
So when "other" people know that I've moved into a 3-room flat they were like "Ooh.. Wa, frm 5-room to 3-room. So got earn money right?"

Does this remark seem normal to you? It might to some of you..

But it isnt so to me.

I was expecting like, "Ooh.. U move house? Why? Cos of living condition? How's ur new house? Ok? Is it nice? Is it convenient?" Blah blah blah...
Talking about money has always been a taboo to me.. Why? Cos it feels sooooo.... Dunno the English word for it. 俗气, tacky... Like as though all in the mind is only money money and money $$$

I hate it

It's like an insult to me. Worse than a slap on my face. It's like saying we were eying on the money that's why we would rather have money than more space.

It's like saying.... The once "had a whole bigger bedroom to myself" me trades space and privacy over money. You're using that to describe me!!!

I feel so... Irk.

And to think, we receive the almost same kind of education in Singapore. Like I am YOU! Who only thinks of monetary stuffs like $$ and $$$ and $$$$
OR
That money is the only thing that is worth talking about. That whatever I do has got to do with $$$, that making money is more important than merely to stay alive. Everybody must be full of $$$ in order to be successful, you live to make money.

And to think .... You practice the same kind of Buddhism as me

I Puiii you la

I may not be perfect in my faith and practice. But one thing I noe is NOT to judge ppl by the house they live in, the clothes they wear, the bags they carry and the amount of money they have.

I may not haf the best of the character of a human. I do think of monetary stuffs like worrying about having enough to live the next half year of 2010.. Or like is the pay that I'm getting enough to help my family... Would my budget be alright in case of a rainy day etc etc... No one can escape that

BUT

I will never EVER say... Wa.. Move house hor.. So got earn money right?


Does it make me any better writing all that?
You bet....

I dun feel like crying out of frustration anymore.....
I'm not so emotional that I cant concentrate on LCH's outline.......
I just hope someone can understand how I feel.. No need to agree la... Just... whatever ba