I think...
I'm just not bloody good at studying.
2Cs and the rest Bs.... Not even one freaking A- to console my poor heart. Out of the 4 semesters, I've only gotten so far like 1 A. And that's even not related to any English or Music modules.
Wait... Recalling back to my diploma year, all my As werent Musically related anyway.
I believe I've never gotten a freaky A for any music modules at all. Went to check, and I'm right.
OMG!
Have I chosen the wrong path??? Maybe I'm not meant to teach Music after all. What if I kill or poison the students with my mediocre knowledge music education? What if I sucked and the students find out? My whole teaching career is over!!!!
And for my English? Sigh..... Maybe I should have chosen History instead? Maybe I could have gotten a few As.........
Bleah.. Stupid English.
Well.. I admit. I was kinda depressed for a while. Then, I remembered my dad telling me to look for my strengths... I went and dig for that. None. Looked at my diploma results. Surprisingly, I think I found it. For all music modules, they were a definite B. But the rest, were As.... Especially ICT, without Shufeng's help, I wouldnt have gotten it. But the rest, group work plus essay all got me A- ...
Whew... At least I know my path now. Definitely not in music education. Well, not that I dun like or dun want to teach music anymore. I still do. Just that I found my strengths somewhere else like Education Psychology in General and topics related to sociology somehow.
Oh well.. No use remembering the old days. Time to look forward and hope that my last semester will get better. In quality and in grades.
HA! NOT POSSIBLE! Cos of YOG, semester is all screwed up.. What der......
I should just sleep over it, like I always do.